they said ...

I can't keep my thoughts together right now or be able to write them down coherently, and when I try, it doesn't get it all right, so that disappoints me. It's a feeling and I can't change it into something more tangible, something more lasting.

It was everything they said it was going to be and not like that at all. The feeling of everything around you disappearing doesn't happen, it just faded to black and I wasn't even there. It was darkness and then there were sparks. That part they got right. And a feeling in your tummy, right at the tippy top, a feeling in your heart, the jumpy kind. Yeah, they got that right too.